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I hate the fact that my Vietnamese is so scarce and my parent’s English is to a minimal. Whenever I just come home from hanging out with friends or school, they would always ask how my day was. It’s so difficult explaining to them the things I see and do. Although my Vietnamese is still fluent, I can’t explain to them the deeper meaning as I can in English. The gap between us makes it that much harder to be closer to each other. 

i feel this with my grandparents! 

but theresa i always thought you were so pro now i think im worse that i thought compared to you! 

its a really wierd transition when you have someone in your life that you spend so much time talking to and thinking about, to just feeling like they dissapeared from it. to have your relationship virtually transfigured and altered in a way, in a blink of an eye nonetheless, to something you could have never imagined it being. like fast as watching something catching on fire and being so helpless you cant stop it but just stand there and watch it spontaneously combust not knowing whether if the state of it will ever be the same or can possible be save or fixed :/ feeling numb, in a state of shock you cant move and being burdened with the guilt that it was partly your fault that it burnt to smithereens cause you didnt even try to stop it from burning, you just watched and waited… the only thing you can do is wish for it to come back and you know where wishing gets us..

i think highschools too short to keep grudges and stay mad at people, you only have so much time with them and you want to spend highschool going around school and awkwardly running into eachother and making eye contact with burning hatred? i think i learned that forgiving is the key to life, just forgive them who cares. why spend all your time being unhappy. and people who dont care about stuff and forgive easily are the happiest, cause caring too much about everything is what makes you upset. except maybe forgiving people who wronged you more than once then thats not ok (: